Bless the LORD for His everlasting love.

Sometimes, I think that if I am bold in declaring the Lord's love for me, that somehow I am filled with arrogance.  I tend to easily disbelieve that my Father delights in me and takes joy in me.  I cannot understand how He can be so patient and how He is just not fed up with me and all my wandering ways.  I don't understand how He could have good thoughts about me, when I often only see all of the wickedness in my heart.  All I've ever known is the human way of thinking; it's difficult for me to wrap my mind around it even though I am familiar with the Truth of His Word.

[I don't think it's our job to understand those things.  Our minds are not made to comprehend the answer to the "Why?" or "How?" question.  He does give us revelation with which our spirits testify.]

I am not even aware of the thoughts I was thinking to God, but I realized in a new way that it's not a selfish thing to believe the Lord loves me.  When I believe with all my heart and openly attest to how richly the LORD loves me and takes joy in me, weak as I am, it is not in elevation to myself.  It is for the GLORY OF MY FATHER!  It is to broadcast that He is the one full of true unconditional love.  It is to testify that everything He says in His word is true.  There is nothing I can or could ever do to earn His love or make Him love me.  I cannot BE good enough - there is NOTHING good in me.  He is my goodness and it is because of His goodness and kindness that He loves me.  I never again want to belittle or dishonour the reality of who God is.  To say He is full of expressive love for me is totally glorifying to HIM, not me!  

I can be confident in Him.  He is the Good Shepherd who loves and genuinely cares for the welfare of His sheep.  It is not a burden for Him to do all the things necessary.  He NEVER grows weak or weary, but gives might to those who lack.  He desires to protect me and to take care of my wounds.  He disciplines me because of His love and to keep me from doing the things that bring myself harm and danger.

I am nothing but a stupid, senseless sheep, but I must trust and learn from my so, so Good Shepherd who is so diligent and careful with me.  I cannot keep wandering off towards other things or looking to the example of another [I know that if and when I do these things, He will come for me], I must hone in on the One with the rod and staff, the One with the ointment, the One full of safety.  I must know and hear His voice.  

My heart is so full and is rejoicing in the freedom of celebrating Christ's love for me.  Nothing can ever separate me.

It Was All To Never Say Farewell

As the dawning light catches my eyelids,
Fingers walk up my arm;
Hands cover my face to
Evaporate the fragrant streams
That have faded through these facial lines.
It was all for comfort.

The bridging gap between
White lies and narrative is that
We trust each other.
We started off slow,
Forging memories in our minds.
Our hands were seldom tied.
It was all for convenience.

I buried my face in your chest,
Hoping to ignore the truth and
The pain coupled with its presence.
This no longer matters.
We've severed the
Fabric keeping this intact.
We have to let go.
It was all for charity.

Moments ago,
When I made m way through the door,
I turned to face a corrupting fortress
Stroking the balance of
Heartbreak and candor.
It was a beautifully compelling
Choice of solitude.
It was hard to say goodbye.
It was all for contentment.

The actions that withered
Stand corrected as
You build palatial walls around
The place we stand.
Permanent features took root in the grass.
You turn our old house into a warming fire.
The embers are floating like
Golden stars around your royal face.
I will never say goodbye.
It was all for completion.