And so it begins...

Here marks the line

Where I left every good thing behind

To look ahead and 

Walk to what is better.

This is real.

No a memory erased,

Not a love forgotten.

But here marks the new beginning.

A journey.

In which my heart breaks.

The pain is untouchable,

Feels like no room for relief.

No one has the remedy

To soothe it's raging fire.

The fear rises up the walls of my mind

The smoke of it is suffocating.

I feel like I'm drowning out of water - 

Tossed up in the air,

Unsure where I'll land.

Sorrow breaches inside my chest.

Tears evade through hollow eyes.

Every word of bravery is a pretense;

Acting strong when all I can do is tremble.

I uncover the mask long enough to

Make a deep confession to the One who

Knows and formed my heart.

As I walk alone,

He opens my eyes to show that

What I feel is not truth.

My eyes move from left to right;

I see many people gathered,

Arms linked, as

Some sort of barrier,

Some sort of shield.

The link breaks before me, 

Two arms part to

Open the door to a rugged path.

There's a bright light 

Keeping me from seeing the

End of the path.

I squint, it is so radiant.

I hesitate to move,

Not wanting to leave the

Formation of support.

I take the first step,

Then pause.

Breathe.

My second step is slightly bigger.

I look around at the faces,

They are smiling, glowing,

Casting off a golden hue as in

Reflection from the great luminosity. 

I make eye contact with one,

In his state of elation,

He winks and says, "Go on, Child".

They are all encouraging me to

Keep moving.

Then I realize, 

I have no where else to go.

This is the path made for me. 

I look again toward the light -

It gives me unnatural strength.

Suddenly I forget all who surround me.

All hesitation has subsided and

I gain new confidence.

Now I am smiling!

My feet are moving; 

The light has filled my heart and 

I don't want to go anywhere but

Where the light is dwelling.

As I take a step on the rocky ground,

The light lets up and 

I can see that 

It doesn't last that way for long.

I can see it smoothing out.

However, I can't see very far ahead, but

I have never felt

More sure,

More safe,

More loved 

Than this moment.

The Light will show me the way and

I know He is trustworthy.

Yes, I will walk in the Light.

Here marks the new beginning:

[A Journey]